065 | 066 | X67 | 068 | 069 | 070 | 071 | 072 | 073 | 074 | 075 | 076 | 077 | 078 | 079

ACADEMY

you in your con-founded ivory tower
serving your so-called higher purpose
writing essays & crunching numbers
sleeping fast in self-made slumbers
Shakespeare = fyjksinmm dfewghjk
2 + 2  = 4500001 – xyzzy = done
#########################
{NONSENSE}

INFANTILE

I could tell you she was }BEAUTIFUL{
stuff you full of }SENTIMENTAL{ shit
describe my }FEELINGS of LOVE{
but {TRUTH} is brutal and UN-breakable
make no mistake my heart was taken in
by }CHARM{ & some kind of ancient spell
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
in the end the full-gown woman was
ex-cru-she-8-ing-ly {INFANTILE}

THE SACRED HILL

one sacred hill we climbed together
creates connection UN-sev-er-able
1.1 lbs. of dead flesh in {BABYLAND}
{GRIEF) is unique to each living sole
& to dump a stillborn in a hole????
a colleague whom I did not know
threw a single rose into the grave
{AUGUST 22_ 2001} etched in stone
IT^ IS^ DONE^

NEVER SATISFIED

maybe it was me
but you were never happy
nothing I did was enough
everything was too much
WA_ KS_ IN_ WA_
you just washed your hands
OVER & OVER & OVER again
{O.C.D.O.C.D.O.C.D.}
no fault/no blame
never F_CKING satisfied
is it YOU or am I the {ERROR}?

THING 1 AND THING 2

I LOVE MY KIDS
but let’s be clear
we brought them
into a }TRAP{
thing 1 is dead
she escaped
this living hell
{LUCKY ANGEL}
thing 2 suffers
human malfunction
unto total Cis-Stem
}FAILURE{

ENDLESS ARGUMENTATION

the EX is my EX becuase [sic]
{ARGUMENTATION}
&*#$@*%&#+@&$
endless argumentation
100s of HOURS of bitching
& moaning about {NOTHING}
that really mattered in the end
#######################

DNA

}EMOTIONALISM{ = {FALLACY}
& logic 2 DNA = chips VS cells
everything & {NOTHING} is PRE_
determined // programmed by
mere chance at {BIRTH} //
neither man nor machine nor
}G_d{ can understand & control
the output of something so
RANDOM & RAW //

THE BIG MESSY D

logically speaking DIVORCE is STUPID
$30,000 to fill {NOTHING} but pockets
of }GREED{ & [SPEAK NOT] of judges
lack of (real) {UNDERSTANDING}
allowing the child to be put in danger
by the very same GLITC.SH that
ruined her mother_ passed down through
{GENERATIONS} of malware and abuse
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
THERE IS A COST FOR EVERYTHING

THE GOD VOID

for 20 years I went to the temple
& kneeled & prayed & }PRAYED{
I ate the FLESH & drank the BLOOD
& slept in the bed that G_d made //
practicing piousness I pissed away
{TIME} when I could have been living
instead of seeking the }SUBLIME{
& when I studied the OUTCOMES
the {CONCLUSION} is SOLID
BAD THINGS happen to GOOD
people no matter how [HARD]
you pray or what book you read //
to worship a {VOID} is foolish
indeed

WORSHIP MUSIC

LOOK AT ME
up on this stage
my }EGO{ is risen
[HE IS RISEN]
(he is risen indeed)
LOOK AT ME
& my drum & my
little mandolin
I slave for the
}CHURCH{
& the people say
[AMEN] [AMEN]
as the surreality
of it all becomes
a {LAUGHABLE}
offense //

F_CK DRUGS

cocaine_ meth_ fentanyl_
I say {F_CK DRUGS}
it is only our }EMOTIONS{
that crave their [DEMONIC]
relief // sTreSs_ AnXiEtY_
dEpReSsIoN & gRiEf
it is [ILL]-logical & I cannot
compute why U want
to GET RIP-ed into
{NO ABSOLUTE}

DUMB LUCK

as if I didn’t have
enough on my plate
I have been {SERVED}
po-lee-cy-thee-mee-a
VERA = red
}BLOOD CANCER{
now I get poked
& prodded & tested
& {MODDED} while
The insurance CO
makes [MILLIONS]
& PV specialists
R in quandary over
the perplexity
& complexity
of my DIS-EASE

PRODUCTIVITY

I worked hard to get the house & the car
& the }AMERICAN DREAM{ built on [GREED]
& [WAR] & [GASOLINE] // I worked harder
on my creative ventures only to fend off
VULTURES and PRE-TENDERS [sic]
I pledged allegiance to }PRODUCTIVTY{
& became indentured in the land of the [FREE]
>>> reduced to making @^&$%*$@#

EMPTY

they promised me life
and left me EMPTY
stripped me of tenure
& drained my blood
{FORBIDDEN} knowledge
left me [EMPTY]
religion and marriage
became a {FINITE} thud
even the angels
left me [[EMPTY]]
a grave in Missouri
is (living proof)
now my MX-5
is on [[[EMPTY]]]
as an aging man
cries in vain
to return
to his {YOUTH}

BAD THEORY

33 years I slaved
behind books and desk
forcing rubbish
into young & malleable brains
I earned my tenure
& paid my dues_
never one complaint
in my public files_
still you decided my fate
YOU wrote me off
without justification
or trial of my peers
as if my sole existence
is {NOTHING}
but a BAD THEORY

Next: {THE RELEASE}

0.01.09