ERASURE 00.00.14

even in the midst of chaos
the gate remains open
^

even in the midst of chaos
the gate remains open
^
horns in pat terns_
swirling be fore sun rise
as I play da blues^
I swear_ I hear laughter_
[I’* got YOU in my clutches_ Dan]^
the devil* in my coffee^
a mused with his bee havior_
as if he has power ove* me_
a formerly b-b-baptized believer^
gave up on hell ions ago_
still__ there he was
with his black beady eyes_
the devil* in my coffee^
what* a good apostate to do
when ol* Satan makes
an imagin ary appear ance?
drink^
drink that joyful brown liquid down^
enjoy e v e r y last dr op^
drink it down_
devil and all^
^
the young people think
they got it so_ go_od_
with all the app s & such^
there use d to be a day
when cus-to-mer sss-
ser v/c e was 10X
what it is^
{NO AI}_ pass_words
Ør 412334_ Ør 566713_
Ør MFA_ Ør press
3 for this & 7 for that^
^
this IS my life_
up all night_ co-opted
by my own bl__d_
se eking pe ace
but getting NO relief^
sometimes_
I want to move
{NORTH} to
Mad-a-was-ka_
far from the heat
& my troubles^
& if my own bl__d
de ceives me a gain_
I* jus jump higher__
into the aurora borealis^
^

^
^
I tried to read the text
& it was like pulling teeth_
reason bored me to the tears
expected to be held back^
I longed to find simplicity
& joy simultaneously
but the words
contradicted both^
& so I* decided that
Marcus Aurelius
is not for me_ too much guilt
in the {NOT} reading^
I make a fair minimalist_
but I* a bad stoic
& have returned
to more important reading_
the poetry of Jim Carroll^
^
imagine
your inner-child in everyone
you meet_
& you might learn to love
like your life
depended upon it^
why do you fight?
everything* as it should be^
{PROGRAMMED}
the world was made with a plan_
you* live & you* die //
why do you question?
everything* going as planned_
your destiny is pre-ordained_
{FREEWILL}
all you can do_
is your best in the mean-time^
Why do you worry?
everything* as it should be_
even things unexpected
& shitty^
the universe isn* perfect_
nor are you_
nor am I_
everything* as it should be //
^

hollow window
broken sky
no reprise
^
I am no different than you_
killing bugs_ polluting the sky_
& pre-tend-ing to b-b-be whole^
but there r cracks in the mirror
that I shave in_ & cracks in my
rear view_ t-too^ there r cracks
in the mmm-mirror to my soul_
there r cracks in the mirror^
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
^
the auto-mobile_
gave humans feet on wheels_
without conscience
or feeling for the moth_
the bee_ & the dragonfly^
as mr & mrs Johnson drive
to their summer beach house_
the bug* guts are sss-smashed
on glass^
clearly_
the Johnsons are guilty
of murder_ as they enjoy
their f_cking Bloody Marys^
^
G_d?
is that what you think you are?
Darwin made up some
skeptical theory *bout
evo-lu-shun_
from fish to man_
to machine?
what if it* all bullshi__
& we are simply
the essence of atomic
energy_
& always on the brink
of destructive collapse?
^

shots rang out
a head caved in
forgiveness remains
^
I walk these city streets
seeking truth^
{LOOK UP}
at the ma-jes-tik_ ark-i-tek-shure_
it feels bigger than G_d^
still_ the closest thing I* found
to truth lies among
the butts_ & within
the dirty sidewalk cracks^
^
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we drank until closing time
& puked on the floor_
then smoked at dawn before
sleeping a few hours
& starting all over again^
somehow_ we escaped
early death & we* still
breathing in our 60s_
while friends wound up dead^
I often wonder_
which of us
are/were the lucky ones?
^

nine years old
since demolished
the soul remains
^
how we have evolved_
from human to plastic
in our never-ending urge
to {SUBMIT} to dis-track-shun^
we frame ourselves
as programmed {EGO}
machines_
& we have lost touch
with the monkeys inside
our selves^
^
nobody really knows_
& if they tell you they do_
go ahead & call them out
for the liars they are^
religion vs science_
matter vs space_
it* all a mmm-man-made
loop^
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